Wednesday November 5, 2008

hey everyone!!! i have been so busy lately just omg lol. i never have time to get on the computer. well this last week was pretty good i guess. some weirdo things have happened and some good things. over the weekend i started getting a cold and it kind sucked. then on monday i was sick so i did nothing but sleep all day and i felt better after that. then on tuesday i went to school and it was school. and then dance and it was an alright practice cuz i still wasnt feeling that good so i just didnt do well at practice. and now its today and today is just boring. nothing exciting had happened and i am like the meanest person ever. so this morning i was going to meet alex and hang out with him cuz he asked me to but then i forgot to set my alarm and woke up late. so i was late so seminary and i wasnt all the way around so then i can home and got around and i was late. so i txt him and told him that i was going to be late and yah it was like 20 minutes later and i was like i am done do u still wanna hang out and he said he just left. so pretty much i am mean for being late and not getting to hang out wtih him. i really wanted to but no i had to wake up late. so my life is sad. and then people just give out my number to random people and its gay. u shouldnt give out peoples number unless u ask first. so now brock has my number. and he said that he said it outloud and this brandon kid memorized it. its weird. i really hate my phone and i wanna shut it off but then i wood miss it a lot. i have 17 minutes till lunch is over. i hate counting down the time but i just always do it. in catering today my team made white chocolate macadamion nut cookies and they were the bomb!!! everyone wanted them and it was amazing lol. and virgina at like 7 cookies and then she got a stomachache and i laughed lol. well my halloween was pretty freaken amazing!!!!!! i went trick or treating and it was bomb. i had so much fun. i didnt get that much candy cuz i skipped like a trillion houses and only went to the scary ones. the one on the end these people chase u and its really scary. me and lulu and mindee went the first time and we got chased down that whole street and it was fun ny lol. then we went back again with shalyn and it wasnt scary after that cuz she just gave the guy a hug and then he just showed us the house. yah pretty amazing. i dressed up as like a half emo kid lol. i took a million pics and i will put them on here as soon as i find the time. hope u all are amazing!!!!
loves ya!!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

An AMAZING Dream!!!!

omg so i just have to tell u all bout this amazing dream that i had last nite. so it kinda is weirdo but then again amazing too. So i was in this band and we were performing at this concert and we were going to skydive into the concert. its weird i no. but so i was the last one and i jumped and it was all amazing. so we get to the concert and perform and i dont really remember that part too well. but then we go to this huge party and like everyone in the entire world was there lol well not really but mostly everyone i knew. so we were just hanging out and everyone thought we were amazing and that we did a really good job and yah. then i saw alex and he was with this girl name julie, idk who that is but anyways. so i was with nes quick and we were going outside and i saw alex and was like do u wanna come with us. so he came and we were outside and hes like where u wanna go cali, denver, london, around the block. and i was like probabley i could not go to anywhere but around the block so we went. and so alex takes my hand and we start walking and talking and just yah normal. then nes quick comes right between us and takes his hand and my hand and whispered to me dont do this. so i just listened. we were walking and talking some more and then we got to this grass area and we were just standing there and then the sprinklers came on and so we were all just playing in them and it was fun lol. then i woke up and it was over. idk why that is so amazing but it was. so i txted cha cha and asked is it true that if you have a dream bout someone they fell asleep thinking of you and it said you were probabley thinking of them and you brain made a dream. so then i ask another question. did they fall asleep thinking of me and cha cha said yes he fell asleep thining of you. but i didnt say he b4 i said did they. i think it just read my mind or something lol. well i gots to go but love u all!!!!!

Friday October 17, 2008

hey everyone!!! today i have to day off of school but then again i dont really have the day off. i have to leave for choreography in 20 minutes. and then pretty much i have to stay there from 10:00- 5:30. i know its like the whole day. its going to be really long and exhausting and then i have a game tonite so its going to be even longer. just wow. it is going to be a very long day. but pretty much my life has been going amazingly well the last couple of days. i only had to go to school monday and tuesday so that pretty much rocked. but then i had to take the planned test and i think i did horrible on that. and yesterday i went on a field trip and it was really boring. i liked not having to go to school but yah. pretty much weirdo people txt me. but i did learn that i am very good at handling people coming in and out of my life. cuz it kinda happens a lot to me. i have to leave in 10 minutes. i am kinda really nervous for choreography cuz i am not very good at my turns or toe touches or kickline. i am really nervous. wow. i hope i can make it through the day. wish me luck!! hope u all are amazing.

me <3 <3 <3 <3

hey everyone!! this is going to be a really long post cuz i have to do that 7 weido facts bout myself and then i want to do this thing that sam did and its where u say 20 people your thinking bout and u dont say there names so other people have to guess them and then i just want to tell u bout my life. so...

Tagged

1. i dont like tomatoes cuz they are squishy and ickie
2. i like living in brighton but when i graduate i want to move away from here
3. i dont like my name. its really weird and no one can say it right and it bugs the crap out of me.
4. my favorite food in the entire world is ceral. i could eat it everyday for breakfast lunch and dinner lol.
5. i love the snow just cuz i think its really romantic lol
6. i am a total rebel and if someone tells me to not do something then i am going to do it
7. i always have to wash my hands cuz i have a hand phobia or something and if they feel dirty then i have to go and wash them and then after that i always put lotion on

ok i have to tag 7 people... samme, trisha, sister weber, sister eaton, sister lewis, tae, and sam

well i will just tell u bout my life right now. well yesterday was way better and thursday was just sad. i wood rather not talk bout thursday. but yesterday i just had a good time with my life cuz i stopped worrying and caring and just went for it. i will tell u some funny parts from yesterday. well at lunch yesterday dylan told me and nomi to wait for him outside the mods cuz he had to finish a test. he said he only had 3 problems left. so we were standing outside for 45 minutes. and it was freezing cold yesterday. it was like ice and we were standing outside waiting for him. we were just talking bout random things but everything seemed to be so funny. so i told nomi to go and see if dylan was almost done. she was all scared and i was laughing my head off outside and she opened the door and everyone turned to look at her and shes whispered "DYLAN" and he just turned around and looked at her and laughed. but it was freezing i could not feel my toes or my fingers. so we started sending him a trillion messeges and calling and leaving voicemails. finally when dylan got outside he checked his phone and he had like 10 messeges that all said hurry up, we are leaving, go faster and stuff like that. it was so funny. o and why we were standing outside i decided to put my fingers on my stomach to warm them up and wow that was freezing and i almost peed myself lol. but yah. then pretty muc the rest of my day was just amazing lol. today i am going to the movies with my friend tallie to see lakeview terrance that one movie with samuel l jackson. its going to be amazing. then i think i might go to the dance but idk yet. but i hope today will just be amazing as yesterday lol.

ok so these are the 20 people on my mind...
1. she is my best friend and i love her so much and she just always makes me laugh and cares bout me so much. she came to my house to check on me and it might not seem like a lot but it meant the world to me. i am so glad we became friends 3 years ago. your the bestest and i loves u a ton. i know there is a ton of drama but we can make it through together. hearts!!!!!

2. i just have to say this persons name cuz i love saying it... DuCkIeEeEeEeEeE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your are so amazing and i love u to death. thank you for keeping all my secrets and i am so glad i can count on u in my life. you the bomb lol and sometime we will get high off of chocolate milk again lol.

3. you did amazing in the play and i am so glad that you are my best friend. i know i should listen to u more often but yah i kinda have a mind of my own. thank you for the tropical skittles they were so yummy!!! your amazing and i love u. o and remember the stuff i told u bout health class lol... that was so hilarious.

4. we have been through a lot and i am so glad that i can count on u in whatever situation i get myself into. you are always there for me no matter what. and i no that if i ever did get into really big trouble that u wood be there to help me through. you the best and i love u. no making out with anyone.. but if u do i totally want to hear bout if b4 anyone else does. lol. try not to get aids lol

5. i dont think i have ever been in a fight with u. maybe like once. and i am so glad that i can have a friend who is so much like me that we never get into fights. you are my TPing buddy and we have to go like one more time b4 TPing season is over. you are an amaZZing listener and u always have great advice to give me when i am through with my story. you are so pretty and i love u to death!!!!

6. thank you for understanding me and knowing me like the back of your hand. i am so glad that u will always love me no matter what. you are the coolest mom ever. thank you for everything!!! i love u!!! ha ha ha drop it like its hot lol

7. dad!!!! i love u so much!!! thanks for always being on my side against mom. i just love to u pieces lol. your the bestest dad ever. i no my life is really easy and thanks for making it that way for me. i love u forever!!!

8. my babies!! you always make me smile no matter what u just can always come and give me a hug and then i feel better already. thank you for listening to my stories even tho u probabley dont understand them at all. but u ask me questions and give me advice even tho its pretty hilarious sometimes. i love being inside you hugs!!! love u!!!

9. my little football player!!! you are growing up so fast it makes me wanna cry. idk what to even say to u. you are going to be a hottie when u grow up and i am going to make sure u get the best girlfriend ever. you so cute and u have to hugest chubby ccheeks ever!!! lol love u!!!

10. you the sweetest emo kid ever!! you are so adorable i just want to squeeze u!!! you have to softest hair and even tho u havent told me your story yet i still need to hear it. u should beat up that one guy for me... well i love u!!!!

11. you are the reason why this week has been crappy. idk what to even do bout u. i try to show u i care and that i love u and then u just stab me in the back so idk what to do. i really want to help u get ypu life in order but u dont listen to me.

12. your the guy. i fell for u and then u crushed me. but now u want me back again... it doesnt even make sense. i think we are better off just being best friends like we used to be. i know we can get through this and just be best friends forever.

13. thank you for being so tough and making people afraid of u lol. you da bomb. and you are probabley the whitest black girl ever lol. your amazing and i love u!!!

14. ok so i think u really need to ask my friend out already. she totally likes u (i think) and u totally like her and u guys are so cute together. so u no just go for it and see what happens.

15. thank you for wanting to shove that guy in a locker for me!!!! that makes me laugh so hard lol. i am so glad that you are one of my best friends!! i love u to death!!!! yessi!!!! <3 <3 <3

16. i cant wait to go to the movies with u tonight it is going to be so much fun!!!!! yay!!! lol. even tho u say u hate me and u say that i hate u... well i dont of course lol. i love u more than words can say. and i love all of our little hand signals in newspaper lol.

17. i have to say your name too cuz i love saying it lol!!!! BAM!! Buttercup. what an amazing rockstar name lol. you are so sweet and pretty and i just love u. i am glad that u and my sister are friends. you amazing and i love u!!!!

18. thank you for always helping me dye my hair. i am so excited for this week cuz u are helping me again. i cant even wait to see how it turns out lol loves ya!!!!

19. i am so sorry for talking bout death the way i did. i know that must be really hard for you. i love u so much and i am always her for u when u need a good laugh. your amazing!!!

20. its 11:11, make a wish!!!!!!!

i am finally done and this is really long lol. i hope u all have an amazing day!!! loves u all a ton!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

my life is gay...

so today has been horrible and i cried. i am at lunch and i have been crying my eyes out like all day. i hope a killer clown comes and gets me and kills me in the nite. then i wood never have to deal with my life ever again. and trisha could plan my funeral and it wood be the coolest funeral ever. and if i died no one wood care anyways. so someone should just stab me in the heart cuz thats how i feel metaphorically right now. well there was this guy that i was going out with and he was like the sweetest guy ever but then some stupid girl (no names) who is the b word with capital all letters ruined my life. she is such a slut and i want to stab her. i feel like screaming right now. o and its the STUPIDEST way to end a relationship with " i think we should just be friends" i hate it when guys do that. expecially over txting. no one does that. people who do are complete a holes. idk what i am even going to do now since my heart has been smashed once again. the guy that i was going out with was a JERK and the girl that ruined us is a SLUT times infinity plus one. i cant even stop saying that. i hope he will try txting me and i will never write back and he will still like me and he will realize that she is a slut and i am way better than her. but by the time that happens it will be too late. my heart will have healed and i will be over him. wow. well i kinda have to go back to school but loves u all except that girl and that guy.

me

Saturday September 27, 2008

samme, i am totally updating my blog just for u lol. ok well um where do i start??? uh i guess life has been pretty good. i have been doin nothing really just school and dance. those 2 things kinda take up all of my time during the week. thats why i just love the weekends cuz i can sit and do nothing lol. yesterday was the big rivalary game between prarieview and brighton. prarieview won, the score was 21-14. it was kinda sad. but the bhs dancers we way more amazing than the prarieview dancers lol. and thats what made our side better even if we lost. next year i hope we beat them. but yah. yesterday i had technique from 3-5 and omg today i am sore. i woke up this morning and i could barely stand up. its killing me. but all i could think while i was breaking my body yesterday was "you are going to look hot after this" lol. kinda i hope i do look better. just right now i cant really move my legs so i have been sitting all day. kinda boring. but people have been txting me. well this one guy lol. and pretty much jessi and talli and lulu and my best friend dylan. but yah. um idk really what else to say. my mind is just all over the place so im not really thinking straight. im fighting with one of my friends and its really sad cuz i miss talking to her but i dont want to try talking to her and just make it worse. so i am just not going to txt her for a couple weeks. i just idk what to do about my whole life. jk lol i do no what im doing. um samme i am thinking of some things to tell u lol. school is school. its kinda boring but the people make it worth it. i am officially passing all my classes which is exciting lol. i had a D in english cuz my teacher hates me. but yah. um um um... i have a trillion best friends lol and its was hilarious cuz last nite at halftime i was standing with my friend sarah sue and people wood just come up to me and be like hey sucora and after about 5 people did that shes like omg u know a million people lol. it was funny. tonite i am going to go see that new movie called eagle eye with shia lebeouf idk how to spell that but i am pretty excited cuz it looks amazing. but yah kinda nervous too that i might end up being the 3rd wheel. but yah. um idk if u no already or not but trisha and tyler are going out and its kinda weirdo. but yah. i am just telling the whole world that cuz i am happy that they are happy. and trie if u read this... i no ur going to be mad cuz i pretty much did tell the whole world that u guys are going out (the people who checked out my blog thing, lots of places) but i really am happy that u are happy with tyler. .. so yah i am going to go watch some movies and try to walk down the stairs lol. loves u all a ton!!!!

hearts,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Monday September 8, 2008

hey everyone!!! well its only been a week and people are flipping out that i need to update my blog. omg lol. calm down, i have just been so busy. i dont think i will have time to tell u everything thats been happening cuz i have to leave for dance practice in like a half hour. well like 20 minutes. but yah. so last week i didnt have practice at all cuz my coach was really sick and then she found out she had kidney stones and had to have surgery on friday. so its been over a week since i have had practice. and a week since i have ran and thats not good. i did run on friday but not other than that. i know i am going to be sore. but yah. then i just had so much stuff to do last week. i hate the weeks but i love the weekends. except when gay teachers give u homework, that kinda sucks. well nothing really happened that was exciting last week so there is really nothing to tell. but the weekend was fun. on friday i went to volleyball practice and that was fun. then i went to the movies at 9:40 with trie and lulu and dylan and some other girl that his is friend. it was really late and no one was there but it was really fun. i screamed at one part lol. then trie and lulu spent the nite and we just talked. then on saturday lulu and duckie went to the volleball game but i didnt want to go cuz sister bracey hates me. no joke, ask anyone. so i went to my little brothers football game and ended up working at the concession stand. it was pretty fun i guess. except i wore a low cut shirt and well guys just came to my side. it was gay and everyone was making fun of me. it was sad. but then i went over to tries house and watched one missed call. it was only really scary in one part, where that mom lady attacks the girl that is going to get killed. but yah not as scary as i thought it was going to be. i think disturbia was scarier. then i went to my aunts house and watched this movie called little house of horrors. and well the people who made that movie is on crack, no joke. but then it was sunday and i went to church and did homework. kinda sucky. and then it was monday and so far its been gay. but yah. well i have to go!!! loves u all!!!!! hope everyone is amaZZing!!!!

hugs,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Monday September 1, 2008

well guys, its almost been a month lol. and even tho i didnt make another post after school it was still good. well school is school but theres other reasons why i am enjoying it this year. well first i made the varsity dance team and i LOV3 it!!!! it is so much fun. we have to run the mile everyday and then do other "conditioning" techniques. its hard work but its really paying off. my clothes are starting to not fit and its only been like 2 weeks. i had my first game on friday and it was amazing lol. i love performing, its such an adrenaline rush. the dance team last year was not that good but this year everyone loved it and it was just rockstar to hear everyone cheer for us. wow its fun lol. then the second reason why its going amazing is that i am making a trillion new friends. but this year not that many new girlfriends cuz girls cause way too much drama. so guy friends is the way to go. i have made a trillion and its rockstar lol. i love just going to school and being myself and just not caring anymore. i cant even wait for homecoming lol. well this weekend i had my game on friday and that kicked butt and then i went to lulus birthday party it was amazing lol. we watched disturbia, omg that is like the scariest movie ever. i swear i never screamed so much. after the movie i couldnt even feel my hand lol. then me and lulu went outside and were just talking and hanging out. she went inside but i stayed out there. i fell asleep. it was scary. i woke up at like 4 in the morning and was going to go inside but someone locked the door and so i had to stay out there the rest of the nite. it was scary, i thought a serial killer was going to come get me lol. omg thats another thing lol. every guy that had his right ear pierced is a serial killer lol. its kinda hilarious lol. but anyways. lulu came outside and woke me up and my eye was swollen. i bug had bitten me and i looked like freaken quazie modo. it was gay. then i took some benadril and it went down. then i came home on saturday after volleyball, we won a game and lost one, and i went to sleep. i woke up at like 6 and took a shower and blah blah blah and then i went to bed at like 7:30. i went to church and it was gay. then i came home after that and started reading twlight and since then i cannot put it down. its like all i have been doin. i am on page 340. omg bella and edward are so fraken cute together. i so want a guy like that but maybe not a vampire lol. but ugh omg lol its adorable. yah lol. then today i went to this picnic thing and hung out with lulu, trie, duckie, tori, and emma. it was rockstar. we were right by the skate park. we went over there and were just messing around and crap. but i totally didnt even no it but aaron and christian were there. i wanted to die right then. it was horrible. i made davin go ask them what there names were just to make sure and well trie was right. it was sad. she left me and i was sitting on the bench all by myself just watching them skate. a lot was going through my mind and trie already knows what im thinking right now even tho i wish i wasnt. its gay. but yah, they kept calling my name and i wood turn around and look at them but yah we didnt talk. i kinda regret not talking to aaron. but yah. well this is really long and i need to go take a shower. ttyl!!!! loves ya all ton!!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Thursday August 14, 2008

well everyone, school is starting today. someone should just kill me now. i so do not want to go back to school. it is going to be horrible. well i hope not. but if u always plan for the worst then your feelings will never be crushed. so... i dont really have that much time cuz school is going to be starting in like 22 minutes. luckily i live across the street tho so i can be late. my mom hates me. she made me take a picture and well i look horrible. ah!!!!!! i just hope today will be amazing. i kinda feel like crying right now. i am just so nervous. but i am just going to try my hardest to not be shy anymore and just be crazy and wild like i am all around my friends. naomi is coming to my house right now so we can walk to school together. it will be amazing. with her i no i have at least one friend. since today is so depressing i want to tell u bout last nite which was not depressing at all!!! well i went to yw and we played olympics. it was so much fun. we brought joel and well he is really shy but he is so sweet. i just love that kid. but we pretty much just hung out the whole time and talked. then joel started throwing berries at me and he gave me a fat lip. it was gay. but then i smacked him and it was all better. ah!!!! school starts in 13 minutes. omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i better get ready to go, well i lov3s ya all and i hope u have an amazing day today!!!!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

ps. if i post another post today then u no i had an amazing day and if i dont then well my day sucked. wish me luck!!!!

Monday August 11, 2008

hey everyone!!! wow its been FoReVeR!!!! but i have just been so busy. well i went to durango and it was amaZZing. well it was fun and it was good to get away again but it rained like the whole time we were there. it was gay. well i went tubing and it was so much fun. but my arms were so sore the next day i could barely pull my pants up lol. but i got a pretty amazing tan line from being in my swimsuit all day lol. then it started raining after that and it pretty much sucked. the whole time i was gone i didnt see any hot guys. wow... thats a first for me lol. but yah. so i got this amazing hoodie while i was gone. its so cute. it is black and it says fun valley colorado in white letters. thats the place where we stayed. but yah. while i was gone i realized that i am so used to 90 degree weather that when its like 60 i am freezing. we were driving home and i had my hoodie on the whole time and it was 90. wow. but yah. so then i got home and unpacked and everything. then i went to yw that nite and played in the raid with davin since everyone else hates me and wood not come. but kinda it was really sad cuz tyler hates me now. something happened and i flipped out on wednesday and now he wont talk to me. i am not very good at keeping best friends. its gay, my life is gay. but then on thursday i went to registration. omg i wanted to DIE!!! well i didnt see any of my friends which was really sad and i saw everyone that i hated. yep my life is gay. me and my mom stood in line for 2 hours and i wanted it to be summer again already. the first day of school is going to be just wow. i dont think i can make it. but then i went to waterworld with jocie, tori, duckie, and me. it was fun. we had a blast and rode a trillion rides. and guess what... i did see a million hot guys there lol. there was this one guy and u could like see all the lines on his six pack and i wanted to die lol. but it was a blast. then i spent the nite at naomis house for the first time since we have been friends. it was amazing. but i fell asleep when we were watching this movie but i was so freaken tired but i felt really bad. sorry nomi!!! then the next day i went to registration with her. it was way faster then when i went to mine. but yah. then we had sammes going away party... sad but so much fun!!!! we did a whole bunch of crazy things lol. we were dancing and playing games in the streets then we ding dong ditched the hot guy that live across the street and left him some goodies lol. then we went TPing and yah it was a blast. we made prank phone calls lol omg morgan is amazing at that lol. honey nut cheerio... your my hero lol!!!!!! o yah and we all got ceral nicknames, i am coca puff. then on saturday i went to see swing vote with trisha and lulu. it was not as funny as i thought it was going to be and it was really sad but it was good. then i read my book the rest of the weekend and i finished it today. wow im done with my homework lol. well i have written a lot lol. and i need to download my metro station cd onto my ipod. omg i forgot to tell u guys that metro station is my new fav band lol!!!! well lovers u all!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Wednesday July 30, 2008

hey everyone!!! sorry i have been so busy lately and have not had time to make a post. so much had happened and i dont even have time to explain it all. my dad has to get on the computer so i have like 5 minutes. i will try to get on here tomorro b4 i leave but idk. well thats basicly what i wanted to tell u all... i am leaving tomorro and not coming back till august 6. omg that is a long time lol. but i am going to durango and it will be a blast to just get away. pretty much i g2g!!! lovers u all!!!!\

me <3 <3 <3

Saturday July 26, 2008

hey people!!!! its almost been a week and so much has happened lol. well girls camp was freaken amaZZing lol!!!!!!! i had so much fun and i met so many new people lol. i swear every txt i get im like who is this and then they tell me and im like omg i so love u a ton lol!!! i got a million new numbers and just made a million new friends. this year girls camp kicked butt!!! i had awesome leaders and awesome ycls and just awesome everything lol. it felt good to come home tho and take a shower lol. it also felt good to sit in an air conditioned car lol. i got home yesterday. on the way home i went to 7-11 and got a slurpie and some nachos lol. it was so yummy!!! then for dinner my aunts got me french fries. lol it was delicious. as soon as i got service i checked my messeges and i had like 30. it was so amazing. i was like people love me lol. right now im listening to he said, she said... this song is nasty lol. wow lol. but pretty much yah. i got home and showed my mom all the stuff we had made and then we talked for awhile. then it started pouring rain. it is all cuz of that freaken rain doll i swear. (so we were getting ready to go on our hike and this creepy old guy brought us this doll and was like do u want it. and we were like uh sure. so we put it outside our camp. the guy said it was a rain doll and whenever u put it outside it rained. it rained everyday at camp) so yesterday it rained. the rain doll really works. but so me and my sister and my little brothers went and played in the rain. it was so much fun. we were soaking and just jumping in puddles and having so much fun. then i came inside and took like an hour shower. it felt so good. lol. then i unpacked, did my laundry, and watched a movie. my little brothers went to my aunts house and spent the nite and my sister went to bed really early. so i was awake and i went upstairs and laid on my parents bed. we were talking then i was laying by my dad and i fell asleep there. i slept with them and they didnt even wake me up. but anyways lol. this morning i woke up and my mom was like hurry up we are going out to breakfast. we went to ihop with my aunts and then we went shopping with them. i got a notebook that says "ROCKSTAR" its amazing lol. i also got some other school stuff. then i came home and have just been chillin. but pretty much last nite i didnt have my phone like at all. since i got back from girls camp i am not really used to it working. i forget bout it and then like 3 hours later i am like i better check my phone and have like 10 messeges. some people really need to calm down lol. but yah. so i got a call from an unknown number and i answered it. i heard people talking but not to me just like whispering in the backround so i hung up. then this morning i had a missed call from that one guy. i was so happy i was like ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yah. i havent talked to him in like a week so it is sad but then good to. its confusing and hard to explain. but yah. pretty much i am getting ready to leave. i am going to a dance with all my friends and its going to be amazing lol. and this week i am so busy. just omg. i have to finish my freaken summer homework. then on tuesday i am going to the movies with a million people to see the dark knight and its going to be so rockstar lol. then on thursday i am leaving again till August 6. i am going to durango. it will be amazing lol. well i better get going. hope u all had an amazing week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lov3 ya!!!!!!

lovers,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Sunday July 20, 2008

hey everyone! its kinda been forever again. but thats just the way i roll. well i am leaving tomorro and then u will never see me again... just kidding lol. i am coming back on friday. i am going to girls camp and it is going to be so freaken amazing i cant even wait!!!! i just get to hang out with all my friends for a week, its going to be amazing. getting away is just what i need right now. i found out that there is no service up where we are going so i am shutting off my phone when i get there and then not turing it on till we leave. i hope i have a million txts so u all better txt me lol. it wood be really sad if i only had like one or something. then i wood cry cuz everyone wood hate me. but yah. i am all packed and i took a shower tonite so i dont have to take one in the morning. i am going to straighten my hair and then i am leaving. its going to be kinda not fun the first day or the first half of the second day cuz i am going up a day early cuz i have to and then everyone else is coming up tuesday. its gay but whatever. i am really excited to go but then kinda not really cuz i got put in a group that i dont really like so it sucks. but if i get annoyed or something i am switching tents and screw what everyone else says. rachel is going to be the head leader at girls camp and she loves me so she will understand. but i am going to sneak out everynite and go to all the other tents and i could care less if i get in trouble cuz i am not really doing anything wrong. people just flip out so easily and they really need to calm down. but yah. i am just going to have a good attitude and be nice to everyone (even people i hate) and i hope that will make it an amazing week. but yah. so i have been doing nothing lately, just a lot of thinking and my gay freaken homework. but yah. thinking is the worst thing u could ever do for yourself and kinda thats like all i have been doing. but yesterday i was on the computer and i was only txting lulu and then i got a txt from the person i was thinking about and it made me smile lol. it was good :-) (i just made that smiley face lol). but yah then i bought a million songs and my sister bought all the mamma mia songs lol! omg!!!! that is my 3rd favorite movie ever!!!!!!!!! its so freaken amaZZing lol. i went with lulu and my sister and saw it on friday and it was just all exciting lol. pretty much i decided that dancing queen is my theme song lol. kinda i am just like that lady but i hope that doesnt happen to me. but pretty much yah. i better get to bed. i hope u all have a freaken amazing week and u do a million fun things!!!! LOv3 ya!!!!

lovers u all a ton,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

ps. if u read this leave a comment so when i get back i will have something to read lol
pss. dont forget to txt me!!!!!

Wednesday July 16, 2008

its been awhile since i have talked to u all last. and last time i was having a freaken break down. kinda since then my life has still been pretty sucky. i just cant get happy. it makes me want to cry. today was just a horrible freaken day. after i got out of the shower my mom came in and started yelling at me. she was just going off on me. i wasnt really listening cuz i get the same lecture a lot. but yah. then she followed me into my room and was still yelling. she had started yelling because i was not doing my homework. i have gay freaken summer homework and i barely started. but its my life, my choices, not hers. but then she like changed the whole freaken conversation around on me. she was suddenly talking bout how i have changed and how everything is michaels fault and that maybe i should get away from my family and that i am not happy. well u dont think i already know all that. i cry almost everynite cuz i am not happy. i am not happy with my life. i dont like it. my life is close to nearly not perfect. i just want to get happy and stay happy but i cant. i have so much on my mind right now and talking only makes things worse for me. she just sat on my bed looking at me while i balled my freaken eyes out. she said that maybe i should go to colorado springs for the school year. she said that brighton high was not making me happy anymore. she said i could go live with her aunt and uncle for the school year. if i did go i would only want to go for one semester and then come back. cuz i wood miss so many people. i dont want to go cuz i wood miss so many things. like... seeing all my school friends, lulus amazing birthday party, homecoming (game, week, dance, royalty), nomis first high school dance, halloween, thanksgiving, all the football games, i woodnt be back till christmas. that is forever. i wood not see anyone for like 3 months of my whole freaken life. i wood miss TPing season and long walks at nite. i wood miss everything i love. and it wood totally and completelty be a new start, a new beginning. but i dont think i will end up going. unless my parents make me. they have been being all weird around me. its freaken gay. my freaken gay freaken life. well i better go to bed so i can get some sleep. sweet dreamz.

lovers u all a ton,
me

People!!!

ok so i no this is like the millionth post today but seriously. i am in such a bad mood. i may not seem like it when i talk to u but inside i dont no wats going on with me. ok so i shut off my phone at 1 since i am supposed to and then i turned it on at 4:30. i had 3 messeges. i was like o kew people love me. i had two from tyler and a pic from christian. he got his lip pierced and he sent me a pic. it looked pretty kew. i wrote back it looks amazing. then i told him that i wanted to pierce my belly button and then i get this really mean txt. its from aaron on christians phone and it says all this mean stuff like i am a slut and im so gross and to stop txting his friends and all this crap. well guess wat... he txt me first!!!!!!!! i was doin fine without aaron or christian or gage or michael or anyone in my life. but i deleted that number a while ago. then a couple weekends ago i got this weirdo txt from a number and it said something really nasty. it was gay. then they just called and then the next day i was txting christian and he told me that aaron had sent that messege and that gage hated me and aaron didnt. then i hadnt talked to him since. but then today aaron just says that and i was like wtf. are u freaken kidding me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! people really need to stay out of my life. so for those of u out there that keep coming in and out of my life, make up your minds. either be in my life and be nice to me or be out. be out and stay out. dont ever come back. delete my number forever. geez!!! i kinda just had a breakout. i am kinda doing better now. but seriously. aaron, christian, gage, michael, whoever the heck i was txting just decide and then follow it. stay in or out.

Friday July 11, 2008

hey guys!!!!! its been forever since i actually made a real post lol. i put all my pics from montana on there but i havent really gotten to tell u all how i have been. well kinda my life has been boring and boring and boring lol. since i have gotten home i have had no motivation to do anything so i have been really really lazy. but yah i have been thinking like way too much, it really sucks. thinking is the worst thing you could do for yourself. i always have too much to think about and its so overwhelming. last nite i was thinking about so much. i was so stressed out. i got really sick and i had a huge mirgrain and i thought i was going to puke. i cant even explain it. pretty much school sucks. i have to do gay summer homework and i havent even started it and school is starting kinda soon. i have so much to do but i dont feel like doing it. so maybe i will just drop those classes. idk. but then some guys are just in my life and then not in my life and then in and then not and they really just need to make up there minds. seriously tho. i cant keep changing my feelings. its not working out well for me. i have to go to my brothers baseball game at 2 and then at 8 tonite i am babysitting for this lady at my dads work. there are going to be 7 kids and the oldest two oldest are 5. and the rest are babies. but the lady said they were rich and that they pay good... so that is good cuz i need the money. next week i already have like 3 dates with different people. not guys lol just friends. my friend tallis birthday so im taking her out, then nomi, and then me trisha and smitty. omg wow lol. kinda i have to go so ttyl!!!! have an amazing day!!!!

lovers u a ton,
me

Coming Home!!

if u cant already tell on the way home lulu had my camera. she took a million pics of herself lol. but she does look amaZZing lol!!!! on the way home we all slept most of the way. i was so worn out. but it was worth it lol!!!!

In Montana

these pictures are from when we were in montana. we had so much fun!!!! it was a blast. i took like a million more but my computer is too slow to let me put them all on there. so yah lol. but all the little kids are trishas cousins. they are so cute... and wild lol.

The Car Ride There

this pictures are of us driving there. omg it was a long ride lol. but it was fun. we pretty much just rocked out to some gay country music lol. we wrote notes to eachother. me and trisha had like 23 pages front and back. lol. that nite we read them... they were so hilarious. we had a laughing attack lol.