January 29, 2009

hey everyone!!!
omg it has been forever like for real. i havent really even remembered my blog till i got a request from mrs gus to see her blog and then i was like omg my blog needs to be updated. so much has happened in the last 2 months, way too much for one post. so i will skip everything until now. well... school is going good i guess. i am not really a fan of school so its just blah too me. friends are pretty much the only reason i get up in the morning. i really love my schedule this smemster though. i have 3 classes with mrs gus which is AMAZING cuz i love her lol. but yah. this past week has been really hard for me... kinda been going through a lot. mostly with a guy. i learned that its really hard to pretend like you dont care anymore. especially when you thought you loved that person. today was the first day i saw him since we broke up. i thought things would be totally horrible and i would cry, but surprisingly things were much better than expected. he just treated me the same as always except minus the holding hands and kissing. it was kinda awkward since usually when we break up he totally ignores me which bugs the crap out of me. but it was just normal. he almost lit me on fire which was scary yet kinda hilarious at the same time. i am trying to get over him all the way, although i feel like a loser cuz he crushed my heart and i still like him. lame i know. i want to write one of my poems on here from english... with mrs gus.. who is amazing lol... ok but dont laugh at it...

my ipod is my happiness
the screen is my memory
the earphones block out the bad
the turner changes my mood
the color is wild, crazy, and random
the play button pauses my emotions
the lock helps me focuz
and pushes away all my thoughts
the music is my emotion
the lyrics are my sadness
the pictures are my joy
my ipod is my world

well i thought i did a pretty good job writing that lol... with some help from mrs gus. i just wanna give a quick shout out to all my friends. you guys are so amazing i love you all so much!!! thank you for always being there for me and trying to make me smile when i need it the most. thanks for hating every guy that breaks my heart and thanks for saying you will punch him in the face if he ever comes near me again. just the simple things you guys do for me makes my day!!! i love you all!!!!
another shout out to my family. mom thanks for always letting me crawl in your bed when i am sad. thanks for being wild and crazy and funny. thanks for making me smile. thanks for letting me use your shoulder to cry on. your the best. dad, thanks for letting me cuddle with you when im sad. thanks for always listening and being the best teddy bear ever!!!! DUCKIE!!!! thanks for being a jerk... lol jk jk. i still love u even though u kick me out of your room. i love you and you are my true best friend. and my little brothers... thanks for just smiling at me when i cry and giving me random hugs and kisses. i love you all so much.
lastly a shout out to a very special person in my life. i am so glad that i met you and that you have been in my life. thank you for all the best advice i have ever gotten for you. thanks for praying for a blizzard even though you dont like the snow. thanks for making me cry out of happiness instead of a broken heart. thanks for giving me passes to class and letting me sit in your room when i dont want to go to class. you are truly my hero. thanks you.

"if you could just step into my shoes and see the way i see you for one day, then you would know how amazing you are. i would be honored for you to be my daughter. i would take you in a heartbeat. i love you and you are strong."
-someone who made me feel worthwhile <3

well i love you all and i hope that you are having an amazing life... hearts!!!

me <3

Wednesday November 5, 2008

hey everyone!!! i have been so busy lately just omg lol. i never have time to get on the computer. well this last week was pretty good i guess. some weirdo things have happened and some good things. over the weekend i started getting a cold and it kind sucked. then on monday i was sick so i did nothing but sleep all day and i felt better after that. then on tuesday i went to school and it was school. and then dance and it was an alright practice cuz i still wasnt feeling that good so i just didnt do well at practice. and now its today and today is just boring. nothing exciting had happened and i am like the meanest person ever. so this morning i was going to meet alex and hang out with him cuz he asked me to but then i forgot to set my alarm and woke up late. so i was late so seminary and i wasnt all the way around so then i can home and got around and i was late. so i txt him and told him that i was going to be late and yah it was like 20 minutes later and i was like i am done do u still wanna hang out and he said he just left. so pretty much i am mean for being late and not getting to hang out wtih him. i really wanted to but no i had to wake up late. so my life is sad. and then people just give out my number to random people and its gay. u shouldnt give out peoples number unless u ask first. so now brock has my number. and he said that he said it outloud and this brandon kid memorized it. its weird. i really hate my phone and i wanna shut it off but then i wood miss it a lot. i have 17 minutes till lunch is over. i hate counting down the time but i just always do it. in catering today my team made white chocolate macadamion nut cookies and they were the bomb!!! everyone wanted them and it was amazing lol. and virgina at like 7 cookies and then she got a stomachache and i laughed lol. well my halloween was pretty freaken amazing!!!!!! i went trick or treating and it was bomb. i had so much fun. i didnt get that much candy cuz i skipped like a trillion houses and only went to the scary ones. the one on the end these people chase u and its really scary. me and lulu and mindee went the first time and we got chased down that whole street and it was fun ny lol. then we went back again with shalyn and it wasnt scary after that cuz she just gave the guy a hug and then he just showed us the house. yah pretty amazing. i dressed up as like a half emo kid lol. i took a million pics and i will put them on here as soon as i find the time. hope u all are amazing!!!!
loves ya!!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

An AMAZING Dream!!!!

omg so i just have to tell u all bout this amazing dream that i had last nite. so it kinda is weirdo but then again amazing too. So i was in this band and we were performing at this concert and we were going to skydive into the concert. its weird i no. but so i was the last one and i jumped and it was all amazing. so we get to the concert and perform and i dont really remember that part too well. but then we go to this huge party and like everyone in the entire world was there lol well not really but mostly everyone i knew. so we were just hanging out and everyone thought we were amazing and that we did a really good job and yah. then i saw alex and he was with this girl name julie, idk who that is but anyways. so i was with nes quick and we were going outside and i saw alex and was like do u wanna come with us. so he came and we were outside and hes like where u wanna go cali, denver, london, around the block. and i was like probabley i could not go to anywhere but around the block so we went. and so alex takes my hand and we start walking and talking and just yah normal. then nes quick comes right between us and takes his hand and my hand and whispered to me dont do this. so i just listened. we were walking and talking some more and then we got to this grass area and we were just standing there and then the sprinklers came on and so we were all just playing in them and it was fun lol. then i woke up and it was over. idk why that is so amazing but it was. so i txted cha cha and asked is it true that if you have a dream bout someone they fell asleep thinking of you and it said you were probabley thinking of them and you brain made a dream. so then i ask another question. did they fall asleep thinking of me and cha cha said yes he fell asleep thining of you. but i didnt say he b4 i said did they. i think it just read my mind or something lol. well i gots to go but love u all!!!!!

Friday October 17, 2008

hey everyone!!! today i have to day off of school but then again i dont really have the day off. i have to leave for choreography in 20 minutes. and then pretty much i have to stay there from 10:00- 5:30. i know its like the whole day. its going to be really long and exhausting and then i have a game tonite so its going to be even longer. just wow. it is going to be a very long day. but pretty much my life has been going amazingly well the last couple of days. i only had to go to school monday and tuesday so that pretty much rocked. but then i had to take the planned test and i think i did horrible on that. and yesterday i went on a field trip and it was really boring. i liked not having to go to school but yah. pretty much weirdo people txt me. but i did learn that i am very good at handling people coming in and out of my life. cuz it kinda happens a lot to me. i have to leave in 10 minutes. i am kinda really nervous for choreography cuz i am not very good at my turns or toe touches or kickline. i am really nervous. wow. i hope i can make it through the day. wish me luck!! hope u all are amazing.

me <3 <3 <3 <3

hey everyone!! this is going to be a really long post cuz i have to do that 7 weido facts bout myself and then i want to do this thing that sam did and its where u say 20 people your thinking bout and u dont say there names so other people have to guess them and then i just want to tell u bout my life. so...

Tagged

1. i dont like tomatoes cuz they are squishy and ickie
2. i like living in brighton but when i graduate i want to move away from here
3. i dont like my name. its really weird and no one can say it right and it bugs the crap out of me.
4. my favorite food in the entire world is ceral. i could eat it everyday for breakfast lunch and dinner lol.
5. i love the snow just cuz i think its really romantic lol
6. i am a total rebel and if someone tells me to not do something then i am going to do it
7. i always have to wash my hands cuz i have a hand phobia or something and if they feel dirty then i have to go and wash them and then after that i always put lotion on

ok i have to tag 7 people... samme, trisha, sister weber, sister eaton, sister lewis, tae, and sam

well i will just tell u bout my life right now. well yesterday was way better and thursday was just sad. i wood rather not talk bout thursday. but yesterday i just had a good time with my life cuz i stopped worrying and caring and just went for it. i will tell u some funny parts from yesterday. well at lunch yesterday dylan told me and nomi to wait for him outside the mods cuz he had to finish a test. he said he only had 3 problems left. so we were standing outside for 45 minutes. and it was freezing cold yesterday. it was like ice and we were standing outside waiting for him. we were just talking bout random things but everything seemed to be so funny. so i told nomi to go and see if dylan was almost done. she was all scared and i was laughing my head off outside and she opened the door and everyone turned to look at her and shes whispered "DYLAN" and he just turned around and looked at her and laughed. but it was freezing i could not feel my toes or my fingers. so we started sending him a trillion messeges and calling and leaving voicemails. finally when dylan got outside he checked his phone and he had like 10 messeges that all said hurry up, we are leaving, go faster and stuff like that. it was so funny. o and why we were standing outside i decided to put my fingers on my stomach to warm them up and wow that was freezing and i almost peed myself lol. but yah. then pretty muc the rest of my day was just amazing lol. today i am going to the movies with my friend tallie to see lakeview terrance that one movie with samuel l jackson. its going to be amazing. then i think i might go to the dance but idk yet. but i hope today will just be amazing as yesterday lol.

ok so these are the 20 people on my mind...
1. she is my best friend and i love her so much and she just always makes me laugh and cares bout me so much. she came to my house to check on me and it might not seem like a lot but it meant the world to me. i am so glad we became friends 3 years ago. your the bestest and i loves u a ton. i know there is a ton of drama but we can make it through together. hearts!!!!!

2. i just have to say this persons name cuz i love saying it... DuCkIeEeEeEeEeE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your are so amazing and i love u to death. thank you for keeping all my secrets and i am so glad i can count on u in my life. you the bomb lol and sometime we will get high off of chocolate milk again lol.

3. you did amazing in the play and i am so glad that you are my best friend. i know i should listen to u more often but yah i kinda have a mind of my own. thank you for the tropical skittles they were so yummy!!! your amazing and i love u. o and remember the stuff i told u bout health class lol... that was so hilarious.

4. we have been through a lot and i am so glad that i can count on u in whatever situation i get myself into. you are always there for me no matter what. and i no that if i ever did get into really big trouble that u wood be there to help me through. you the best and i love u. no making out with anyone.. but if u do i totally want to hear bout if b4 anyone else does. lol. try not to get aids lol

5. i dont think i have ever been in a fight with u. maybe like once. and i am so glad that i can have a friend who is so much like me that we never get into fights. you are my TPing buddy and we have to go like one more time b4 TPing season is over. you are an amaZZing listener and u always have great advice to give me when i am through with my story. you are so pretty and i love u to death!!!!

6. thank you for understanding me and knowing me like the back of your hand. i am so glad that u will always love me no matter what. you are the coolest mom ever. thank you for everything!!! i love u!!! ha ha ha drop it like its hot lol

7. dad!!!! i love u so much!!! thanks for always being on my side against mom. i just love to u pieces lol. your the bestest dad ever. i no my life is really easy and thanks for making it that way for me. i love u forever!!!

8. my babies!! you always make me smile no matter what u just can always come and give me a hug and then i feel better already. thank you for listening to my stories even tho u probabley dont understand them at all. but u ask me questions and give me advice even tho its pretty hilarious sometimes. i love being inside you hugs!!! love u!!!

9. my little football player!!! you are growing up so fast it makes me wanna cry. idk what to even say to u. you are going to be a hottie when u grow up and i am going to make sure u get the best girlfriend ever. you so cute and u have to hugest chubby ccheeks ever!!! lol love u!!!

10. you the sweetest emo kid ever!! you are so adorable i just want to squeeze u!!! you have to softest hair and even tho u havent told me your story yet i still need to hear it. u should beat up that one guy for me... well i love u!!!!

11. you are the reason why this week has been crappy. idk what to even do bout u. i try to show u i care and that i love u and then u just stab me in the back so idk what to do. i really want to help u get ypu life in order but u dont listen to me.

12. your the guy. i fell for u and then u crushed me. but now u want me back again... it doesnt even make sense. i think we are better off just being best friends like we used to be. i know we can get through this and just be best friends forever.

13. thank you for being so tough and making people afraid of u lol. you da bomb. and you are probabley the whitest black girl ever lol. your amazing and i love u!!!

14. ok so i think u really need to ask my friend out already. she totally likes u (i think) and u totally like her and u guys are so cute together. so u no just go for it and see what happens.

15. thank you for wanting to shove that guy in a locker for me!!!! that makes me laugh so hard lol. i am so glad that you are one of my best friends!! i love u to death!!!! yessi!!!! <3 <3 <3

16. i cant wait to go to the movies with u tonight it is going to be so much fun!!!!! yay!!! lol. even tho u say u hate me and u say that i hate u... well i dont of course lol. i love u more than words can say. and i love all of our little hand signals in newspaper lol.

17. i have to say your name too cuz i love saying it lol!!!! BAM!! Buttercup. what an amazing rockstar name lol. you are so sweet and pretty and i just love u. i am glad that u and my sister are friends. you amazing and i love u!!!!

18. thank you for always helping me dye my hair. i am so excited for this week cuz u are helping me again. i cant even wait to see how it turns out lol loves ya!!!!

19. i am so sorry for talking bout death the way i did. i know that must be really hard for you. i love u so much and i am always her for u when u need a good laugh. your amazing!!!

20. its 11:11, make a wish!!!!!!!

i am finally done and this is really long lol. i hope u all have an amazing day!!! loves u all a ton!!!

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

my life is gay...

so today has been horrible and i cried. i am at lunch and i have been crying my eyes out like all day. i hope a killer clown comes and gets me and kills me in the nite. then i wood never have to deal with my life ever again. and trisha could plan my funeral and it wood be the coolest funeral ever. and if i died no one wood care anyways. so someone should just stab me in the heart cuz thats how i feel metaphorically right now. well there was this guy that i was going out with and he was like the sweetest guy ever but then some stupid girl (no names) who is the b word with capital all letters ruined my life. she is such a slut and i want to stab her. i feel like screaming right now. o and its the STUPIDEST way to end a relationship with " i think we should just be friends" i hate it when guys do that. expecially over txting. no one does that. people who do are complete a holes. idk what i am even going to do now since my heart has been smashed once again. the guy that i was going out with was a JERK and the girl that ruined us is a SLUT times infinity plus one. i cant even stop saying that. i hope he will try txting me and i will never write back and he will still like me and he will realize that she is a slut and i am way better than her. but by the time that happens it will be too late. my heart will have healed and i will be over him. wow. well i kinda have to go back to school but loves u all except that girl and that guy.

me

Saturday September 27, 2008

samme, i am totally updating my blog just for u lol. ok well um where do i start??? uh i guess life has been pretty good. i have been doin nothing really just school and dance. those 2 things kinda take up all of my time during the week. thats why i just love the weekends cuz i can sit and do nothing lol. yesterday was the big rivalary game between prarieview and brighton. prarieview won, the score was 21-14. it was kinda sad. but the bhs dancers we way more amazing than the prarieview dancers lol. and thats what made our side better even if we lost. next year i hope we beat them. but yah. yesterday i had technique from 3-5 and omg today i am sore. i woke up this morning and i could barely stand up. its killing me. but all i could think while i was breaking my body yesterday was "you are going to look hot after this" lol. kinda i hope i do look better. just right now i cant really move my legs so i have been sitting all day. kinda boring. but people have been txting me. well this one guy lol. and pretty much jessi and talli and lulu and my best friend dylan. but yah. um idk really what else to say. my mind is just all over the place so im not really thinking straight. im fighting with one of my friends and its really sad cuz i miss talking to her but i dont want to try talking to her and just make it worse. so i am just not going to txt her for a couple weeks. i just idk what to do about my whole life. jk lol i do no what im doing. um samme i am thinking of some things to tell u lol. school is school. its kinda boring but the people make it worth it. i am officially passing all my classes which is exciting lol. i had a D in english cuz my teacher hates me. but yah. um um um... i have a trillion best friends lol and its was hilarious cuz last nite at halftime i was standing with my friend sarah sue and people wood just come up to me and be like hey sucora and after about 5 people did that shes like omg u know a million people lol. it was funny. tonite i am going to go see that new movie called eagle eye with shia lebeouf idk how to spell that but i am pretty excited cuz it looks amazing. but yah kinda nervous too that i might end up being the 3rd wheel. but yah. um idk if u no already or not but trisha and tyler are going out and its kinda weirdo. but yah. i am just telling the whole world that cuz i am happy that they are happy. and trie if u read this... i no ur going to be mad cuz i pretty much did tell the whole world that u guys are going out (the people who checked out my blog thing, lots of places) but i really am happy that u are happy with tyler. .. so yah i am going to go watch some movies and try to walk down the stairs lol. loves u all a ton!!!!

hearts,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3