Monday May 26, 2008

so its been a while since i have told u bout my life lol. well on friday it was my sisters birthday party. it was so much fun. we blasted the music and just laughed. we went TPing at my aunts house but they caught us, once again lol. but on friday night a very good friend of my sister, sidney weber, died in a car accident. her and her family were driving to utah when they slipped on an ice patch and the car rolled. she was not in her seat belt. the rest of her family is ok. heavenly father needed her more than we did. she touched many hearts and she will always be remembered. we love u sid!! on saturday i got my hair cut, it looks amazing and i love it. then we went to my cousin nicoles graduation party, it was kinda awkward cuz i have not seen anyone in forever like a year. but ya. then we went shopping and we got a million new clothes. it was fun. on sunday church was hard cuz we talked bout sidney. everyone was crying, even the guys. then i went over to my friend trishas house. she just got back from montana and didnt tell anyone bout it, well everyone new but me. it was gay. but i went over there and we just huing out and had so much fun. she is the best!!! today i came home at like 11 and took a shower. then i helped clean the house and now i am listening to some music and thinking. it is really depressing actually. what i am thinking bout sucks. the song check yes juliet always reminds me and i just listened to it. so now i am thinking. i hate thinking. i just want to be friends. but i no that is not going to happen. so pretty much my life sucks right now. but it will get better, i hope. i hope everyone else's life is amazing!!!

LOv3,
Me

Thursday May 22, 2008

today was pretty good lol. i went over to my friend nomi's house and hung out like all day. we had a million laughing attacks lol. it was her birthday today and a very sweet guy stopped by with a very sweet gift lol. i watched the hole thing frim behind the wall. it was adorable. pretty much we just hung out all day and then we painted our nails. they are hooker red with hate written on one side and love written on the other side. and one thumb is a heart and the other thumb is a broken heart, they look amazing lol. tomorro is my sisters birthday party and i am so excited cuz we are going tping lol!!! i havent gone in forever and i am so excited lol!!!! on saturday idk wat i am doing but i am going to my little brothers baseball game and then to the dance. i hope that nomi decides to go or else it will just be me and smitty lol. and i think i am going shopping on saturday for some summer clothes, cuz i really need some lol. and on saturday lulu is coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait to see her cuz i miss her so much!!! and then in a couple weeks trisha will be home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this summer i want to gain confidence in my self. that is what i want most right now. well i am going to go to bed cuz i am babysitting cassie and dallin in the morning!!! sweet dreamz!!!

LOv3,
Me

Wednesday May 21, 2008

omg i am so sorry that i missed u guys yesterday, i have been so busy lately. lol. well i am officially out of school and a sophmore lol!!! i am so excited to be on summer break, it feels amazing lol!!! so yesterday i didnt really do anything just hung out and relaxed. Today i babysit my babies this morning and then i spent the afternoon by myself. i like the quiet sometimes cuz it gives me time to think and relax. i laid in the sun for a little while, until the sun went behind the clouds which sucked. but i think i did get a little tan. then i watched this movie on disney channel called read it and weep. i have never seen it before. but in the end i started balling my eyes out... it was horrible. i dont even know why i was crying but i just was. it was a happy ennding and i was crying. who does that??? i dont know but i felt like a freak after that. then i was watching gilmore girls, my new favorite show, and trisha called me and i flipped out. like no joke i flipped out and i was screaming at her and then i started crying and then i hung up on her. i felt really bad, but i apoligized and everythings all good. then i went to yw tonight. it wasnt a good idea i shouldve just stayed home like duckie wanted, but i wanted to get out of the house. so i got there and i decided that i was going to talk to sister lewis about how i was feeling cuz she always gives good advice. so i was talking to her and i started crying again and we sat in the car the whole time just talking, its amazing how fast time flys by when u r thinking so much. i told her bout michael and aaron and she said that michael is just a jerk that only ever wanted one thing and now i relize that. but i still like aaron, well not really anymore. she said that if he is going to believe michael over me then he isnt worth my time, and that made me relize that i can forget about aaron. i dont need him to make me happy, i can make myself happy. she also said that communication it the key thing to any relationship. and that getting involved makes everything more better. so this summer is dedicated to finding myself, finding the real me. it is going to be hard, but i can do and its something that i want to do. thank you sister lewis for all your help, you are amazing!!!!

LOv3,
Me

Monday May 19, 2008

So today was pretty good, i guess. i had to take 2 finals, english and art. They were pretty gay but i finished them. So as of now i only have 1 hour and a half of school left. i am so excited!!! lol!!! i had a million people sign my yearbook and well some were really sad and some were not. but ya so ya lol. i really dont have that much to say. so well i got to see that lecoi kid... omg lol. shanna sent me a pic of him and trisha and i screamed. i was sitting in the car and i got this pic from shanna and i screamed. my mom was kinda mad and when i screamed it wasnt really helping. but i just had to scream lol !!!! i cannot even wait to meet him!! and i cant wait till i get to see trisha and lulu lol!!! well um i think thats all i have to say.

LOv3,
Me

ps. I <3 u all more than words can say!!!

Sunday May 18, 2008

sorry i missed u guys yesterday i was really busy. it was an alright day yesterday i guess. things could have been better but things could have been worse. i woke up yesterday and i checked my email and then got around. then i went and mowed my grandparents lawn, it was really long and it took a lot of work. they have a huge yard. today my arms hurt really bad from lifting the bag to dump the grass, but by the end of the summer i should have pretty big muscles lol. then i went to my little brothers baseball game. it was really hot outside. i got sunburned. it sucked. but then today i woke up and it was gone. it turned into a tan but not a very good one lol. then i went to my cousins graduation party, it was pretty fun. i talked to blith and she told us some funny stories and then i got to meet my cousins boyfriend, juan, he is pretty nice. it was really relaxing cuz i just sat on the porch and let the wind blow on me. then at about 9 my aunt took me to go shopping for duckie's birthday. i got her some huge white sunglasses with butterflies on the side and some chocolate lollipops. she has chocolate lollipop eyes, so thats why i got them for her. then i came home, ate some french fries, and then talked to trisha, and then went to bed. i feel really bad cuz well me and trisha got in 2 fights yesterday. it was horrible and it was all my fault. but i hope that we are not fighting anymore, she hasnt txted me back yet. i feel awful, it was all my fault. ugh, my life sucks. i cant really explain how i am feeling right now. its like i cant control my emotions, i mean one minute i am happy and then the next i am not. i dont know wats wrong with me, but watever. well i have to go get ready to go to my cousins graduation. i hope all of u have an amazing day!!!

LOv3,
Me

ps. Trisha i am really sorry, please dont be mad at me.
pss. duckie i LOv3 U!!!!!
psss. nomi i am sorry bout all that is happening to u
pssss. i love u guys!!

Friday May 16, 2008

Well today was very interesting and really boring. It was also kinda sucky. I keep having a good day and then a bad day and then a good day and then a bad day... its gay. So i just woke up this morning and got around and i got my babies around. Then i finished my art project, i thought it was going to look better but it really didnt it actually looked kinda sucky. but then my grandma came and got me and my babies and we went to 7-11. We got some slurpies and some chips. They were delicious lol. then we went to the school. i dropped off my babies at kindergarden and then i went looking for my little brother, i gave him a slurpie and everyone else was jealous lol. Ok so this is way off subject but, the other day at my little brothers baseball game i was cheering really loud and then after the game one of the kids on his team said he was lucky to have big sisters. i felt pretty amazing lol. ok so back to my day... well then nomi got there and we hung out the hole day. we really just wondered around and talked. i totally saw this guy that looked like the guy that i like but it wasnt him cuz he was in the 6th grade, but no joke they looked the same. but then we were going to kindergarden graduation and we were at the drinking fountains and guess who happened to walk by. u no that one guy lol. for those of u who do no well nomi almost died. it was really awkward and i just wanted to dissappear but then she wood have been really mad at me. so i stayed. but he totally new that we had just lied to him. i kinda felt bad for the kid but well watever. so then i didnt get home till 4 and i babely walked inside and sister mourtinsen was already waiting for me. i had to go babysitting. i just got home and i am really tired. but i cant fall asleep for some freaken reason. u no that guy that i like well i cant stop thinking bout him... its gay!!!!!!!! but i got some good advice from my friend kelsey. she is really good at giving advice. thank u!!! well i am going to try and get some sleep cuz tomorro is a busy day. but i hope that everyone else can fall asleep and u had a great day!!! luv u guys!!!

LOv3,
Me

ps. sorry lulu i didnt get to mail ur letter i forgot.
pss. nomi i am really sorry that ur day kinda sucked
psss. thanks again kelsey!!!
pssss. duckie i am really sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3!!!
psssss. $w33t Dr3@m$!!!!!!!

Thursday May 15, 2008

So today was alright i guess. it was really boring but it was my last day for math, science, and freshman seminar lol!!! it was pretty exciting!!! lol! so last night my life was filled with drama!!! it was kinda terrible. well this one guy likes my friend and i think she likes him but im not sure and we were supposed to go to this dance and now she doesnt want to go so it kinda sux. but watever. me and luke are so caught in the middle!!!!! well we have a "secret plan" that we hope will work. well as of right now i only have 3 hours of school left lol!!! that is pretty amazing!!! right now i am listening to sadie hawkins dance lol (kelsey i no u love that song lol). if i were going to go to a sadie hawkins dance i think i wood ask that one guy that i like lol. so well i really dont know what else to say lol. ok so i thought of something lol. this weekend i am so excited!!! lol!! well on friday, well tomorro, i dont have to go to school!!! i am so excited for that!! i get to go to my babies kindergarden graduation and then my little brothers field day. and it is supposed to be warm tomorro which is amazing lol... then on saturday i am going to my little brothers baseball game and then my cousins graduation party which is so exciting. and then on sunday i get to go to my cousins graduation... omg she is growing up so much lol!! well i am just trying to lov3 life right now lol. i hope that the rest of u are having a fantastic day!!!

LOv3,
Me <3

ps.lulu i got ur letter and i am sending it 2morro!!! i miss u!!! I [] u !!! lol (thats supposed to be a square lol)
pss.nomi i cant wait for 2morro cuz well i just cant lol
psss. trisha i am so glad u are feeling better lol!!!
pssss. duckie i am so glad that u r home lol i missed u so much!!!
psssss. i am talking to nomi on the phone right now lol its amazzing!!!
pssssss. omg "friends are like condoms, they are there for you when it gets hard." O WOW!!! lol
psssssss. well i think that is all i have to say...
pssssssss. well thanks mom for just being there and everything lol ur the best
psssssssss. well i am thinking bout this guy... only a few of u know who it is.. but he is amazing but we are not talking but i just wan to be friends.
pssssssssss. so i LOv3 all of u more than words can say lol
pssssssssss. well i am smexy lol and so is that one guy lol

Wednesday May 14, 2008

Well today was way more amazing than yesterday lol. i just had a freaken amazing day today lol!! this morning was my last day of seminary so that was just good altogether lol. then school didnt start till 9 so it was kew to just hang out. in history cortez told us all these funny stories that just made my day better. in art i am alomst finished with my painting... it looks amazing lol!!! and in health i read my paper. it felt amazing to just know that i am done with health. and i decided that guys are just going to be guys and i could care less about wat they have to say bout me because i know that everyone loves me lol jk jk. but i know a lot of people do. i am getting ready to leave cuz my aunt is taking me to go get ice cream lol... i am so lucky lol. i just want to say thank you to davin for making me smile today lol. and thank you to everyone that i love more than words can say!!! i hope that all of u are having a dazzling day as well!!!

LOv3,
Me

ps. only 1 day abd 3 hours of school left lol!!!! YES!!! i am almost a sophmore!!!
pss. trisha i was reading my health paper and all i could think bout was u and i just wanted to thank you again for being the bestest friend i could have ever asked for. and i no that u no wat i mean by that!!! LOv3 u!!!
psss. nomi i cant wait for 2nite lol and i someone else cant wiat either lol!!!!

Tuesday May 13, 2008

So i dont know bout any of u but my day was just not that good. the weather kinda ruined it cuz it was all depressing outside. and school is almost over and i just have like a milliion things to do but i really dont feel like doing anything lol. my mom is at outdoor ed with my sister and my dad had to work tonight so i am stuck babysitting... its gay. but i dont have to pay my phone bill cuz of it so its all good. lol. and then some stupid guys just ruined my hole life. i do not understand why they hate me so much but watever cuz i do NOT care bout them anymore. they can just stay out of my life. well i hope that everyone else is have an AMAZING day!!!