Wednesday May 21, 2008

omg i am so sorry that i missed u guys yesterday, i have been so busy lately. lol. well i am officially out of school and a sophmore lol!!! i am so excited to be on summer break, it feels amazing lol!!! so yesterday i didnt really do anything just hung out and relaxed. Today i babysit my babies this morning and then i spent the afternoon by myself. i like the quiet sometimes cuz it gives me time to think and relax. i laid in the sun for a little while, until the sun went behind the clouds which sucked. but i think i did get a little tan. then i watched this movie on disney channel called read it and weep. i have never seen it before. but in the end i started balling my eyes out... it was horrible. i dont even know why i was crying but i just was. it was a happy ennding and i was crying. who does that??? i dont know but i felt like a freak after that. then i was watching gilmore girls, my new favorite show, and trisha called me and i flipped out. like no joke i flipped out and i was screaming at her and then i started crying and then i hung up on her. i felt really bad, but i apoligized and everythings all good. then i went to yw tonight. it wasnt a good idea i shouldve just stayed home like duckie wanted, but i wanted to get out of the house. so i got there and i decided that i was going to talk to sister lewis about how i was feeling cuz she always gives good advice. so i was talking to her and i started crying again and we sat in the car the whole time just talking, its amazing how fast time flys by when u r thinking so much. i told her bout michael and aaron and she said that michael is just a jerk that only ever wanted one thing and now i relize that. but i still like aaron, well not really anymore. she said that if he is going to believe michael over me then he isnt worth my time, and that made me relize that i can forget about aaron. i dont need him to make me happy, i can make myself happy. she also said that communication it the key thing to any relationship. and that getting involved makes everything more better. so this summer is dedicated to finding myself, finding the real me. it is going to be hard, but i can do and its something that i want to do. thank you sister lewis for all your help, you are amazing!!!!

LOv3,
Me