Leaving...

hey guys!!! i am leaving for montana in like 10 minutes. i am so excited to go!!!!! its going to be a blast!!! sorry i havent made any changes to my blog but i have been so busy lately. going to montana is relazing i hope!!!! i wont be back till monday!!!! o and where i am going there is no service, so i dont have to txt anyone!!!! yay!!! lol!!! but yah, gots ta go!!!! have a faboulous weekend and thursday and monday lol!!!!! miss u!!!!

lovers u a ton,
me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

ps. the new will smith movie, handcock, is freaken amaZZing lol!!!!!!! its so tied first place with transformers lol!!!!!!

Monday June 30, 2008

omg its been the whole weekend and i have so much to tell lol. well on friday trisha came over. we went to my brothers baseball game and he won. but there was this stupid green shirt lady that wood scream so loud and rosemary said she was going to go punch her in the face. she wood yell at the pitcher 1...2...3... out. it was so annoying. so at the end of the game when my "g" best friend trevor was pitching i wood yell that as loud as i could. he did amazing lol. we won by one point. and now his team is going to the world series, i am so happy. GO BAD BOYZ!!!! they rock lol. i made a new best friend that nite named gabriel. he is pauls little brother and he is so adorable. trisha said i scare little kids and that is how im going to kidnap them when i grow up lol. kinda that is not wat i am going to be lol. the keyboard is all sticky and its bugging me. but yah. then we were driving home and there was this huge car accident and we had to go through the median, i thought my mom was going to kill us lol. but we obviously made it or else i woodnt be typing this right now lol. omg i almost forgot, that day i gave trevor a hug and he just ran away from me. so iwas like trevor why do u hate me so much, im just going to cry myself to sleep so he gave me a high five. and i was like trisha that is the highlight of my day and shes like the highlight of ur day is not me coming over and i was like uh no lol. but yah lol. then on saturday i went to my little brothers baseball game and they lost by one. but they did good. i got a sunburn on my shoulders cuz i was wearing a tank top but it should be turing tan soon... i hope lol. then that nite i went to the dance with smitty and naomi. u were supposed to wear jeans but we just happened to wear skirts. it was embarrassing lol. but yah. me and naomi sat on the floor in all the slow songs cuz we did not want guys to ask us to dance and then on the fast songs we screamed them. but really they need to play better music and NOT play techno. but yah. then on sunday i went to church, came home, and then watched law and order like all day lol. sundays are so relaxing lol. then today i woke up and pretty much did nothing all day except txt and chill. i helped with the laundry and cleaned the kitchen but taht was about it. i no i no my life is boring lol. but i was just in an amazing mood and i danced around like all day lol. and yah. it was kinda a weirdo day but watever lol. this is really long. i guess i better go. kinda no one is txting me back, its sad. but yah lol. sweet dreamz!!!

i lovers u a ton,

me <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

ps. on wednesday i am going to see the new will smith movie!!!!! im so excited!!!!!

Thursday June 26, 2008

today was the best day i had all week, no joke. i didnt have a panic attack or a breakdown or cry. well i did cry but only for like 5 minutes. today i didnt think hardly at all and that feels amazing. i woke up this moring and just hung out. then i had to go get shots. i had to get two, hepatitis a and the cancer one idk wat it is called. but yah. then we went and picked up nomi fry and she came over and hung out. we went to safeway and it was just amazing lol. i love that store and idk why. then we came home and my moms friend rosemary came over. she is pretty amaZZing lol. she is my "bff" lol. then we went swimming. we had so much fun. we just swam around and i saw my best friend paul and my "g" best friend trevor. but that kid hates me. but yah lol. and there was this kid with man boobs. he was like really skinny but he had boobs. rosemary said he needed to get a bra lol. i kinda had a laughing attack. she is hilarious. and then we took nomi and tori home. then we came back and yah. rosemary, aaron, wyatt, and cody came over and just hung out for a while. aaron is garretts coach and wyatt and cody are his kids. cody is my best friend to and he gave me a hug today. he is so cute. when i put some more pics on my blog i will put one of him. then i just blasted some music and now im working on my blog and IMing lulu. i better get to bed cuz i am kinda tired. hope u all had a freaken amaZZing day!!!!

hearts&hugs,
me

Wednesday June 25, 2008

hay everyone. i was signing in and it was showing all the blogs that have been updated and there was this one that said lesbian lovers... o wow lol. and omg i am so starving cuz i have not eaten since lunch. but i made myself a pot pie and it just came out and its burning my mouth but it is so yummy u have to try one lol. today i dont really no how to describe it, cuz my mood and feelings wood change so fast. one minute happy, one minute sad, one minute mad, one minute frustrated... just omg. i think i am bipolar or something. i kinda flipped out like a million times today. so this morning was alright. then trisha invited her friend kailee to yw tonite and i thought she hated me so i just started crying and was like omg. but kinda kailee is like my new best friend she is amazing lol. i love u kailee lol!!! but ya. then there is this thing that i cant tell anyone. but kinda some people already no and if u do then u no how much i am flipping out about it. it is like all i think about and its really sad but then kinda happy i guess to. i just idk yet. i need to make a pros and cons list... trisha that is ur job. and no its not a guy. i am done with guys. lol! but ya . so for mutual tonite i went ice blocking... omg it was so freaken AMAZING!!! lol!!! i had so much fun. i am so glad i went. but i wore shorts, that is not a good idea. for those of u who dont no wat ice blocking is well u take a huge block of ice and slide down a hill on it. it sounds stupid but pretty much its so much fun. it gives u an adreanaline rush... idk how to say or spell that word lol. so yah. it was just so much fun. but then i came home and i got in a huge fight with my parents bout that thing and yah. but i am better now. so there is one thing that i regret the most right now and that is ever going out with aaron. cuz if i never went out with him then he wood still be my friend and he wood be txting me right now and yah. he always new wat to say in watever kind of problem i was having. if he ever reads this which i doubt he will lol but i really miss ur advice so u should just txt me sometime cuz i have a million problems and i just miss talking to u. but yah i doubt he will ever even no that. i am not even finished eating my pot pie and i am full. something is wrong wit me i ate like half of it. yah. but i am just going to go to bed. well call trisha again and then go to bed. i hope u all had a freaken dazzling day!!! i love u all!!!

hearts&hugs,

me

Tuesday June 24, 2008

hey everyone. so pretty much i just changed me blog again. i added like a million amazing quotes and pictures. i think it looks amazing lol. i am really tired so this wont be very long. and i have to wake up early in the morning cuz i have to babysit, gay. but ya. so today was alright i guess. better than yesterday. i went swimming and i just let everything go, i didnt think at all. it feels amazing to not think. but ya. i have a new best friend named paul, he is on my brothers baseball team lol. but omg my "g" best friend trevor is so white, like no joke. i guess that doesnt make him "g" lol. but seriously like whiter than me and im white lol. that kid is not even my best friend cuz he hates me so ya. i think a lot of people hate me right not. kinda i have just been in an awful mood. cuz of one thing but i cant tell. but its really sad and some of u already know about it. but its depressing. well me and trisha are not fighting anymore. she is not the B word. but something is wrong with her cuz she is all sad and she wont tell me. she changes mood quickly. cuz earlier today she said her life was perfect. i guess u messed it up. well life isnt perfect. u have to read all my quotes and understnad. yah. but i think lulu is still mad at me. i was the B word to her last nite. but yah. she is kinda not having a good day. im sorry again lulu. i understand if u dont want to talk to me just txt me when u r ready to talk again. my life is depressing but i really want to be happy. thats why i put all those quotes on my blog so i can read them everyday. i hope taht my blog inspires everyone. i guess this was kinda long... sorry. sweet dreamz.

hearts&hugs,
me

ps. sorry again lulu, i really am. i feel terrible.
pss. trisha, u really need to get happy and stay happy. sorry for watever happened.
psss. nomi, if that thing does happen i will be really sad to. im crying. ugh, ah, omg!!!!!!

Monday June 23, 2008

hey everyone.. so my life sucks. i really want to cry. i the most horrible day ever and to top it all off i had a horrible night to. so it started this morning when i was in a terrible mood. i started yelling at everyone. then my mom got mad. then we were talking and then i started crying. and i just cried on her shoulder for like 2 hours. it was horrible. and i had a huge headache. finally when i was done i just went on the computer. i changed my blog and it looks amazing. but ya. so the main thing that ruined my hole freaken day was trisha. ah!!! i was just trying to be nice and then she was just being the B word. so i was going to invite her over after the movies and spend the night, so i asked her wat she was doing tomorro. she said amy was coming over tonite i was like ok nevermind. and then i was like dont txt me tonite and shes like why and i was like cuz ur going to be with amy and she said so and i said well i dont want to be rude. and then we got in this huge fight and so we are still fighting. cuz i dont no wat she told everyone tonite but both tyler and amy said i started the fight cuz i got mad cuz she invited amy and not me. that is not even the story. maybe people should just tell the truth. i think i am going to cry again. just ugh. everything in my life is not going right it keeps going wrong. things just keep getting worse. just omg. so ya i think i am just going to go to bed and think till i fall asleep. kinda i have a lot to think about. its hard to be strong when ur weak to begin with. its hard to be strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong. well i hope u all had a way better day than me...

hearts&hugs,
me

ps. sorry that this post is all over the place, but kinda i cant focus on anything.
pss. i dont think i am going to go to mutual wednesday or the dance. sorry guys.

TPing Photos

so these pics are from friday when i went TPing... they are amaZZing lol!!! everyone has to go TPing before they die, they just have to!!!

hearts&hugs,

me <3